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Yellow: When you get older, where would you want to live?Orange: Where do you want to be right now?
Lilac: What is your dream vacation?
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Black: Share something you did embarrassingly.
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Violet: What college do you plan to attend?
Brown: Would you rather have a relationship or friend with benefit? Explain.
Peach: Who is your favorite teacher so far?
Pink: What is the meaning behind your url?
Since im out of my pain meds……
1mg of suboxone and 100 mg of amphetamines later I feel today is gonna be wonderfully pain free and amazing. Huzzah for effectively speedballing :)
Anonymous asked: are you planning to go see 'the beatles: the lost concert' film?
I was was not but mostly because I dont have any money lol
Its official my mom cares more about her husband (my step father) more than her firstborn son.
And because of this im officially done with all of this shit. I’ve tried. My goddamn hardest to not self injure but I can’t hold it back anymore. I don’t care if I fucking bleed out or encounter some complication where I die I just can’t live in this never ending hell.
STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING AND WATCH THIS VIDEO
HOLY. SHIT.
*BAWLING*
goosebumps everywhere.
HOLY SHIT THIS IS GREAT
breath taking
You all wanted to see how far down I can go?
Well congrats you succeeded and I hope its everything you dreamed it would be.
Alright people
I took like a week off from talking to people and spent it thinking about my situation and the possibilities I have to change it and it hasn’t helped. I have however come to a conclusion. Since my goddamn “family” is full of a bunch of fucking hypocrites who hate each other, who won’t admit to anything that is their fault, and who are so judgemental I can’t talk to any of them about anything I’m done. As a kid I always wanted a family with siblings and parents who loved me and supported me and were legitimately good people. Well fuck it its never gonna happen so there goes that goddamn dream right down the fucking drain. A while 20 years of hoping wasted to the point where I don’t even want a family anymore. Fuck family, fuck love, and fuck everyone. I feel that my hatred of people is finally the first thing EVER to surpass the hatred I have towards myself and its all thanks to the fucking cunt faced taint lickers that make up my so called family. fuck it. Im gonna go cut myself to shreds now and take enough of my pain medication to where I simply pass out.
contra-spem-spero asked: Well one day you'll have your own family, be a fantastic father, and you can give your children the family you always wanted.
I know I guess im just being selfish…. all I wanted was to know they loved me. To hear my parents say they were proud. To have siblings who gave a damn. But I suppose I should stop being selfish and just move on. Focusing on hurt doesn’t do anything but make it worse.
Fuck this
Fuck each breath
Fuck each tear
Fuck each word
Fuck each beat of my pathetic heart
Fuck these cuts
Fuck the moments I cared
Fuck the moments I didn’t
Fuck family
Fuck “friends”
Fuck this pain
Fuck happiness
Fuck relationships
Fuck the world
Fuck love
But most of all
Fuck
My
Life
